HOME
So, here is the thing: I’m going home for several reasons. Going HOME on Monday.
I will be going to finish my recovering from a month long START of a relapse of bipolar disorder. It was NOT to the stage of mania. It basically meant that I was being hyper and impulsive and paranoid and scattered enough for a change in medication. But things have balanced out now.
My brother and his fiance are getting married in June. I will be a reader at the wedding, and am apparently needed at a bachlorette party, bridal shower, and as an interior design consultant on a new home. Whew!
My sister and her husband are having baby no. 2 at the end of August. YAY! And their new home is so nice that they are able to set me up with a GUEST ROOM (!) so I can help take care of my sister and babysit Isaac and help them run the dustbuster and stuff. I think they even have cable..which is so cool, I don’t care what my anti-tv friends say: sometimes you just have to watch music videos and late-night comedy talk shows!
My parents will love having me home too, not only for me just being THERE again, but because I am so ready to help them get their house into SHAPE. Lots of cooking of healthy meals, and cleaning out of useless stuff, which is one thing I’ve always liked to do: cull the clutter!
And then there are all the usual holidays that I always miss out on: Easter, Mother’s Day, Father’s Day, 4th of July, Halloween, Birthdays and all the family events and reunions.
To say that I’m happy, am thrilled, to be returning to my hometown, (even though it may be it suburban and polluted), is the understatement of the century.
I am also going home to find myself, truly. No lies about what I do and don’t want in my life. These are major major changes…and I feel that all of them are good, even though I am quite aware that it will not all be sunshine and light. There will be struggles, and there will be hurt..but I expect that to be outweighed by tremendous JOY. Joy which I have denied myself for too long.
That is right. I am coming HOME. And I’m not going to be looking back. I am looking forward. Old friends, new friends, new ventures, new work and play. Just being whole again for the first time in a long while, without feeling someone pressuring me. Without pressuring myself to do things which I do not agree with, nor believe in. Yes, it is that serious.
But it is going to be seriously fun, freeing and..did I mention FUN?!! FUN!
Hey guys! I’m coming OVA!
(I am listening to songs by Liam Finn online, but want to buy his album, “I’ll be lightning”, sometime soon. Music is always a help at any time like this…or any time, really.)
March 8th, 2008 at 2:39 pm
that’s wonderful, amy! congrats to you. and best wishes on your journey. xoxo
March 8th, 2008 at 3:43 pm
Thanks Leah, though I’ve been quiet, I have been thinking of you and looking at your work now and then! When I’m in New England later in the year, we’ll have to get together! I’ll be in touch.
March 10th, 2008 at 9:37 am
(Yes, my email has changed back to the old email again…Don’t ask…*lol*)
*hugs* Maybe someone will even follow you home. I’m hoping, anyway. :)
March 10th, 2008 at 5:27 pm
Just wanted to say it’s good to see your words and your pictures and i’m wishing you the best in your coming home and spending time with your family–your growing family!
Life is such an unexpected adventure, isn’t it?
Will you be coming to Philadelphia too?
Ruth
March 11th, 2008 at 6:16 am
Kirst,
Thanks! Someone follow me home?! What do you mean?! I don’t need a stalker, too, on top of everything else.. he he he.
Cam might come over for my brother’s wedding in June, but there’s a lot of stuff that we need to figure out first.
Thank you Ruth..yes..it IS an “unexpected adventure”..there will be more than just one trip to Philly! I’ve most of my friends (from the U.S.) in that particular city! I miss it too… I will let you know of any days I’ll be in the area.
xo Amy