9 Moons Ago

Closing Time

I haven’t watched the Simpsons in a while…in fact, I haven’t watched much TV in recent months. But when I turn on the tv here at home and can not find a single music video to make me feel better when I am recovering, then I know this WORLD is CRAZY.
Music Television helped me recover from my first hospitalization when I was 21, in 1995. I sat and soaked up the inspiration and healed just by listening to the music and watching the great film footage. I felt inspired and whole.

I don’t want to sit and watch the computer screen to watch videos..that takes energy. I want my MTV back. Why is there nothing but game show after game show? It’s been like this for YEARS. I used to watch 120 minutes with my Mom (cause she is cool like that) and then they killed that off.

It SUCKS and it’s pissing me off..and I can’t afford M2 in a cable package so they can sod off.
But …new bands keep requesting me on MySpace and that’s cool. At least I can find stuff without having to look for it too hard. It’s just not as relaxing.

Does anyone agree with me here? I’m not so sure I’ll get a response, but if you live in Australia, you won’t relate anyway… they actually show and play a lot of good music there. THAT is what I’ll miss: music is my “chocolate husband”. I NEED it…it sweeps me off my feet.

Today, on her lunch break, my brother’s fiance, Allison, stopped by with a bouquet of red carnations from her and Dan. And I love carnations..and red! Red roses? Not so much. Any other flower in red..yes, yes yes!

Last night was rough..night time can be a doozy sometimes, these days..but today felt pretty good, and I got to visit with good neighbours who have been friends for years.

Watched some R.E.M. footage online ..they have a piece of live footage daily check their website, R.E.M. HQ for details, or follow this link:

ninetynights

..I think it’s filmed till their album comes out. It’s called ninety nights. My fav part? Michael Stipe eye candy. Yeah..I love the music, but have already told you I will always have a crush. Please shut up already.

Actually, no one tells me this is stupid anyway…I mean my Mom calls Tom Brokaw “her boyfriend”. (Shhhh…. you didn’t hear that from me: ixnay on the omtay rokawbay)

I’ve had such overwhelming support from family and friends over the past weeks, which has got me thinking of those loved ones who I did not get to say “goodbye” to after I moved to Australia..the ones who I will always miss, now that they are gone. It made me realize that I do not want to spend such long long times away from people whom I care deeply about. I can not keep letting time slip through my fingers. But I know that love never dies and that I can get through grief when I need to… I have done it before.

One person whom I lost was my Aunt Marie’s father, Richard Kelly, who would sing to me when I was about 5 or 6, and taught me my first songs on the piano, before I began lessons. He was like a grandfather to me in a way, and I still think of him often.

This song was originally sung by Ray Bolger, and was covered by various other artists, including Frank Sinatra. I had a hard time finding a good sample of it..and none with Ray Bolger, but though this is quite cheese-y in some ways (like the intro), I like the way it was filmed and the singing and song itself make me smile.
This was my special song from Mr. Kelly, and it will always make me think of him:

I have many people still in my life, and each one of you has a special memory or item that I call upon when thinking of you. I carry all of you in my heart on this difficult, but rewarding journey. My love and happiness to all of you dear folk, new and old.

The doctor says that I am fine to fly, that there should be no increase in meds, that he will write a letter to my new doctors in the States. I am well on my way! Have had a good long chat to my Mom today and my family is just as excited as I am that I will be coming OVA! Finally.

Less than 2 weeks. EEEP!

I am happy. And I am getting back to being healthy rather quickly. Had some hearty laughs with Daniel and Cameron who took me out for lamb shish tonight. I am even thinking of painting a little, once I have most of my things packed. I can’t say enough good things about all of you who have helped me just by a word or two. Every bit of support makes me feel your love, as cheese-ball as that sounds! I love you, too!