9 Moons Ago

Since these pics are on Cam’s comp, thought I’d post another one today.
This is me in 1976, being silly as usual:

Sometimes people take life too seriously, myself included.

Some reasons (different from excuses) for my withdrawal over the past months:
A bit of depression, due in part to not taking care of myself, change of season, etc.
Lack of motivation..goes hand in hand with the depression.
Lack of focus.
Total disorganisation of my environment.
Plain & simple, procrastination.

I’m about to reverse this downward spiral, so I’ll keep you posted. In fact, I’ll write, even if I do not post much artwork. After all, my writing is an expression of creativity as well.

Plus, I’d like to help people who also deal with mental illness by not glossing over the lows of my daily life. I still have to pull myself up from some “blah” periods. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but I am trying to listen to my own advice and be proactive. I don’t like to feel clouded and unproductive. So I make the choice to take action.
Everytime I do this, I end up a level higher, more happy and energised. It doesn’t happen overnight..no “snapping out of it”..but it does take an upward trend once I make the decision. I start to take flight and soar. And this includes the down periods that last too long, meaning I talk to the doctor and fix the med situation, if need be. The good thing is, I think this time it’s going to be easily fixed without med changes…those are few and far between.

One thing I will do is turn off the news more often. I like to be well-informed, but I’ve known for many years that the more I watch news, the less happy I become. That’s no good for anyone really…I want to be a part of the peace process..but being depressed zaps all my energy.
I think the best way I can bring peace to the world is by serving those in need, fighting less with my own loved ones, celebrating and encouraging the goodness in the world and other people, praying, and voting certain people out of office. I’m not afraid to live my life..ride the train, go into the city, fly across the globe, etc. And I will NOT stop being silly! NEVER!!! Mrahhh haaa haaa!! Don’t say I didn’t warn you if you find out that you’ve been walking around all day with jean sizes on your back!!

What is one fun, warm & fuzzy, loving, or silly thing that YOU can do for yourself or someone else today?!!

I’m going to take a nice bath..something I haven’t let myself do in ages, because of the drought. (Quick showers just aren’t as nice.) Going to light candles, burn incense, play music, the works!
Then a delicious dinner of lime & pepper fish, with rice, for me and my honey, while we watch something fun on TV.
Have a great day!!

**Congratulations to our little goddaughter, Anna (Banana), on her Baptism!

‘Member how I said I was gonna make an effort to make this site more arty and less quiet this month? ‘ Member that?
Well, I did make a little effort, but I’m not satisfied. And now my computer is sitting over there mocking me. Saying “You had a chance..now whatcha gonna do for JUNE?!! Will I play nice or will I make it harder still?!”

Yes, I’m not satisfied, but I’m not giving in either. And that goes for the rest of my daily struggles. The thing is, what is on here..or not..very much reflects the state of mind in which I’ve been.
So I’ll level with ya.

Not much artwork or journaling has been done. I’m not gonna go into the whole analysis of it, but it’s like I lost that initial burst of energy and “thrust” that I had back in February. Yet, I’m willing to do the work and stick to my plans of this blog and the artwork I want to make. Get that energy back. I am going to persist and FINISH some dayaaaamn projects in my lifetime.

Some of you know that when I promise to do something, it’s probably a long shot that I’ll finish it. Especially in the last few years. This is the main issue I’ve been struggling with and I’m soooo ready to be accountable and not make new promises till some major tasks, commissioned works, and promised gifts are finally FINISHED!!

My full name might actually be Amy Avoidance Miller? Either that or Amy Rubens Barrichello (Who is currently first, but will most likely end up bowing out and not finishing the race)

So, in summation..it’s less talk, more walk. And “um, yeah..it’s ..uh..the vibe” *

Here’s a pic of me eating a tree, taken by Chhavy many mannnny moons ago:

*curious about this quote?: Just rent the Aussie comedy “The Castle”. You’ll thank me for it.

Hmm..Cam just walked by and said “I love you, grapenut!”
Silliness rules!

Short and sweet today.

Power outage last night..now *pooof* my comp won’t start up, and we’re hoping it’s just the “on” button that got stuck, as it did in a similar situation last year. The scanner is hooked up to the other comp, so I won’t post any drawings yet.
The button has yet to cooperate with us, so I’ve left “Tangerine Dream” to stew in her own juices for now.

It’s freezing today and I have a stomach ache…been feeling under-the-weather most of the day. So, I plan to sit in front of the fire and read or watch TV.

Everything is fine otherwise!
Thanks for the emails and phone calls Tammy, Katie, Donna and Janine!!

Mumsy, I’ll email you soon!

Here is my art for the day: A rose…BAHH HAAA HAAA!!

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Don’t feel left out if I never mention YOUR birthday on this site, even if I do remember it! It doesn’t mean I think you’re not worth it. That is just your own overwhelming paranoia and lack of self esteem driving you into the depths of despair. And um no, I do not have a major ego problem, thank you.

Just wanted to say Many Happy Returns of the Day to my sister-in-law, cousin, and godchild because I love them and also because don’t have any other sooper dooper news right now.

Been cleaning stoof up..I can see my desk again!!
Bought groceries today..whoo hoo! What a rush!
Took the trash and recycables down the quarter mile drive. In the semi-darkness. Nothing like doing it at the last minute!

I might be sarcastic beyond tolerance today, but at least I’m feeling positive, motivated and verrry silly inside. Of course, that could be entirely due to the ginger beer?!
Think I might go draw then post it later or tomorrow… Ta!!
Amireeno